Cold summer night :)

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Self plain rant

I know everything will be okay, but I can’t help but feel helpless, and irresponsible. The past few weeks I feel that I’ve been a piece of shit to my biggest pride in life. I’ve finally found why. The underlying reason is my low self-esteem. Not because he makes me feel bad about myself; he always makes me feel gorgeous. But when I look at myself, I feel ugly. That is definitely my hormones talking, but what they have to say is very relevant to my point. It’s not at all doubt in our relationship, in any way. I am extremely confident with our bond, and honestly hope it lasts a lifetime. I just severely need inner peace for my relationships with people to work and last, I’ve realized today. I wish I hadn’t gotten out of hand with laziness and stupidity. I haven’t been feeling myself lately, and I hate to be dragging my love down with me. It’s my fault, and it’s up to me to fix it. My solution is not to isolate myself or anything, but just clean up my act. Fuck laziness, fuck over eating, fuck being disrespectful, and motherfuck low self-esteem… By the end of this rant, I no longer feel helpless, but motivated to kick shit into gear and earn love, respect, and happiness.

I know nobody cares, but this is how I’m thinking, for what it’s worth.