On-board Training

SUN DECK.

with my room mates. I can say.. no dull moments with them.  Especially, Ruby, the girl in a white shirt in the back. She's hilarious. and She's my fave. hahaha! I will miss those noodles eating time during our hungry moments. One thing I can't forget is during those mornings, were we used to woke up at 5 am to fixed ourselves, and make pila to the bathroom to take a shower, and one of the challenge for me is taking a bath with a 0 degree super super cold water. ugh!
no hot water?! whatduh! Good thing I survived on it. :)

awesome view at the sun deck.

housekeeping duty. One of the difficult duties we've done. We used to clean those stinky bathrooms and rooms, like super value, which is the cheapest room where different kinds and types of passengers are staying there. It's like you're in a public hospital, seriously..

duties all done. and yess! we made it. after  3 days of pahihirap and pagod. we all survived the hardship. :)

Just got mine. After all the tiring duties. :)
We all enter the ship like we're all blank papers and we leave  with lots of knowledges and extaordinary experiences.  Kudos to us! ;)

The Wedding.

relatives.

boyfie and cousin :)

me with my niece. Julia. She's just 14 and yeah! she's taller than me :|

SUPER ENCHANTING SUNDAY!

goofin'around with them inside the van heading to Laguna. yahoo!

And yes! we arrived. Hello Ek!
Finally! After such a long time, was able to visit Enchanted Kingdom na, been an ages since  I went here.

with the girls, and with our beautiful ate,ate andrea! <3 (the one in lavander shirt)
and oh! please don't mind my horrid face here! >.<

with Eldar :)

My fave photo with these two gurlsss

First stop. Rialto.

We used to ride the "go kart" too. It's kinda pricey but you'll surely enjoy naman being a go kart driver for a day.
 I was super bothered with the extremely hot weather, cause it's around 2pm in the afternoon, but deadma nalng, and now I'm saying hello to my tan lines. lol. Anyway,Barbs and I chose the 2 seater.
She is the first one who drove the kart, I can say she's a  fearless, and a reckless driver as well. lol
I keep shouting "slowly lang" every time we are passing to the curve lane. And when it's my turn na, I got nervous when i sitted to the driver's seat because it seems my other foot is hard to reach the foot break. I just thought, Is my legs that short? rofl. Even Barbs is so kabado, it's like w'e're going to bump the other kart anytime. And yes! we bumped! haha. I accidentally bumped the "slow down" sign, i guess i forgot to step on the break or i just don't noticed the sign. haha! reasons! After that, i realized that I can't be a good driver on real life, I used to dream of being a drift driver pa naman. chos!

And this is my favorite part in EK. The Brooklyn Place.
 I always got envy every time I saw people posting their photos in this vintagey looking place.! Atlast, I have my own photo here. :)

Walking down the street <3

and he's the reason of all this happiness! <3 Spread LOVE! <3

Yes! a decent photo with him. *clapclap

"Flying Fiesta" I got dizzy riding in here.

the last stop! I thought I wouldn't get that so wet in this ride just like what i saw from those people who've been there,
but it's worst beyond my expectation pa pla, luckily i brought extra undies and clothes :)

Stream at night. I was so sad i wasn't able to ride here. :(

and the Ek day is overrr.  such an exhausted day. but super funnnn! Looking forward for the next bond.
LOVE.LOVE.LOVE

Alone and Lonely.

I like being alone.

I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone. 
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.

I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.

But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away. Haist!

Cold summer night :)

Because when you smile, I melt inside. ❤ :"> 

  

Self plain rant

I know everything will be okay, but I can’t help but feel helpless, and irresponsible. The past few weeks I feel that I’ve been a piece of shit to my biggest pride in life. I’ve finally found why. The underlying reason is my low self-esteem. Not because he makes me feel bad about myself; he always makes me feel gorgeous. But when I look at myself, I feel ugly. That is definitely my hormones talking, but what they have to say is very relevant to my point. It’s not at all doubt in our relationship, in any way. I am extremely confident with our bond, and honestly hope it lasts a lifetime. I just severely need inner peace for my relationships with people to work and last, I’ve realized today. I wish I hadn’t gotten out of hand with laziness and stupidity. I haven’t been feeling myself lately, and I hate to be dragging my love down with me. It’s my fault, and it’s up to me to fix it. My solution is not to isolate myself or anything, but just clean up my act. Fuck laziness, fuck over eating, fuck being disrespectful, and motherfuck low self-esteem… By the end of this rant, I no longer feel helpless, but motivated to kick shit into gear and earn love, respect, and happiness.

I know nobody cares, but this is how I’m thinking, for what it’s worth.

I'm beyond insecure of myself.

Everyday, someone makes a comment about my looks, or my weight, and I feel like I just got hit by a bus. It’s the two things I’m so insecure about. The things they say make me want to just die. To just drop dead, right then and there. For once, I want to wake up, and I want to actually feel beautiful. I want to be skinny. I don’t want to be so insecure about myself.

I know there are things I can do to change, and sure, I’ve tried them, or I do them now. It’s a process though. I just hope that someday, I’ll be able to not have to worry about changing myself to make myself happy.

And just so we all know, I’m not changing for another person. I want to change for me.

Chill out Night.

Chillin' with the couple :)

Looks like i've got an enormous tummy here. PS. I'm not preggy or something. I'm just full :P

with my beloved <3

so what's with that pose :P

NO REGRETS. JUST L♥VE.

HAGGARDO VERSOZA :p

You are the reason why even at the saddest part of my life, I smile. Even at confusion, I understand. Even in betrayal, I trust. Even in fear of pain, I love. ♥